Susan -:- Answers from Donner (bringing to top) -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 20:40:49 (GMT)

__ Susan -:- here they are oops... -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 20:42:44 (GMT)

__ __ AJW -:- Thanks Mike. -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 13:20:42 (GMT)

__ __ Jim -:- Thanks for all that, Donner -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:53:38 (GMT)

__ __ __ janet -:- dettmers-you're staying! jim's drunk! -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:33:53 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Francesca -:- janet I love having you here! LOLs :--P n/t -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 19:11:56 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Pat Conlon -:- Pauline's selling a kidney so janet can come to -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 19:41:43 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Jim -:- That is one fucking beautiful emoticom! -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:24:56 (GMT)

__ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- Humm...! -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:07:10 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Marianne -:- No paper drawing for me -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 10:24:30 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Jim -:- Do I own dirty work? Well I guess I have a little -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:39:25 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Marianne -:- Hear, hear -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 20:20:01 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ janet -:- you noticed, huh? he thinks he is. hahahaha. -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:37:22 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Richard -:- Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:24:23 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ donner -:- Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:27:01 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:27:22 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:55:43 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- Dettmers, Guy - thanks -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:11:45 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- Guy, sorry about the lingo -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:04:12 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Katie H. -:- PWK=Person with Knowledge -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:02:26 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- PAM = Premie Around Maharaji /nt -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:05:45 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Katie -:- PAM = Person Around Maharaji -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:08:32 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- PAM = Person Around Maharaji -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:54:26 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Katie -:- you got it! -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:26:35 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ janet -:- OT=subject off topic(not gmj dish)...nt -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:44:13 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Katie -:- Just realized you probably know all this! nt -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:41:23 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Katie H. -:- Michael Dettmers, a personal post to you -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:21:00 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- Thanks -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:30:51 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Katie H. -:- You're welcome -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:37:07 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- Oh no! -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:48:31 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Katie H. -:- Oh no! is right -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:57:11 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Jim -:- Who ME?? As Bal Bhagwan Ji use to say -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:14:40 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- Hey Jim, let's just let Bahgwans be Bahgwans /nt -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:26:17 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Jim :) -:- Cute but, Richard, let's face it, that's a pun -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 04:30:19 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Richard (|:-)[~~]X -:- Very punny Jim -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 07:31:53 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ janet -:- love puns, hate clowns. watch out. now i know! -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:51:07 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Jim -:- FA - Could you please sweep this post for threats? -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:48:08 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Susan -:- Bozophobiacs Unite -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 15:11:38 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Jim -:- I would LOL if I wasn't half asleep -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:51:44 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Francesca -:- I love puns, and clowns. Homey don't play dat n/t -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 07:26:02 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Monmot -:- LOL!!! Touche......nt -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:10:25 (GMT)

__ __ Katie H. -:- Thanks, Michael Donner -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:38:03 (GMT)

__ __ Jerry -:- Thank you, Mike -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:24:55 (GMT)

__ __ guy rollins -:- In response to your Answers: -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 21:15:16 (GMT)

__ __ __ Katie H. -:- I agree with you, Guy -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:46:10 (GMT)

__ __ __ Joe -:- Question, Guy -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:10:04 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- Question, Guy -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:20:55 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- The 707 -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:11:14 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Moldy Warp -:- Hans Jayanti 77 - different travelling styles! -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:38:50 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ observer -:- aircraft accident study -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:37:26 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- The 707 -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:30:41 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Alan Fenstermacher -:- The 707 - General Projects Budgeting Process -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:18:13 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- The 707 - General Projects Budgeting Process -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 04:09:22 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- I think it was about a year later (nt) -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:37:34 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Richard -:- One more question, Guy -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:23:35 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- One more question, Guy -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:27:57 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Joe -:- Okay, one more.... -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:27:07 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- Okay, one more.... -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:33:56 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- More on the 707 -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:30:23 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Joy -:- I Have A Quick ? re the 707 -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:27:39 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- Quick Ans. re the 707 -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:44:55 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ bill burke -:- NHD707 -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 06:39:12 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- NHD707 -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 16:29:26 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- WOW bill.... -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 15:22:37 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ bill -:- Cynthia, -:- Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 04:26:02 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- And one more.... -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:30:32 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- And one more.... -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:39:56 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- The 707 at DECA -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:51:22 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Francesca -:- Bad mood -:- Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 03:00:54 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- The 707 at DECA -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:48:48 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Guy and Michael, Thank you for your exchange... -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:24:35 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- Guy and Michael, Thank you for your exchange... -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 06:17:08 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Connie -:- Cynthia, just want to say -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:19:43 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Connie, just want to say -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 20:14:15 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Connie -:- Agree a hundred percent that -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 21:19:02 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Francesca -:- Your input is valuable -:- Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 03:06:19 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Thelma -:- Connie, ignore Pat. He's a prim old church lady NT -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 23:31:45 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Katie H. -:- Connie, your posts are great! -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 22:51:59 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat Conlon -:- Thelma's getting all the womyn fired up because -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 23:33:31 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Connie -:- well I did, I'm still posting, thanks heaps nt -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 22:07:53 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- Connie - ignore Pat - I love your posts nt -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 21:48:02 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- Cynthia you said 'Maharaji ridiculting you' -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:27:58 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Richard--Good Catch... -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 15:28:13 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat Conlon -:- Have you noticed how many hilariously -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:33:21 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Pat: Ridiculting was a good one.... -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 19:57:06 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Pat Conlon -:- Cynthia and ''exited utterances'' -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 20:54:31 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Hi Pat -:- Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 01:27:28 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ Richard -:- Thanks for answers Guy /nt -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:04:40 (GMT)

__ __ Richard -:- Donner - thank you for some answers -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 21:08:38 (GMT)

__ __ Dermot -:- Thanks michael for the time and effort -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 21:03:57 (GMT)

__ __ __ donner -:- guy rollins, there are some -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:41:14 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ guy rollins -:- guy rollins, there are some -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:49:13 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Joe -:- Hey Donner, -:- Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:52:29 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ bill burke -:- Miami vices-the drug/fed's/premies connection -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 07:21:41 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ donner -:- Hey Donner, -:- Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:47:16 (GMT)

Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 20:40:49 (GMT)
From: Susan
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: Answers from Donner (bringing to top)
Message:

These were 'salty mike's answers to LA ex

I thought they deserved a new thread. Thanks Michael Donner for the insights...I am glad you made it out and are speaking out. I was fascinated by your insights.

Susan

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 20:42:44 (GMT)
From: Susan
Email: None
To: Answers from Michael
Subject: here they are oops...
Message:


yes, some or most of what you have asked has been addressed by dettmers and myself to some extend earlier...preface to say that i concur completely with dettmers' accounts, their accuracy and the tone of his replies.
1. drinking? my personal experience is that m has been drinking since i began in denver in 1973...told then by bob mishler that he was drinking daily...that is daily...since he arrived in america.
i know that it was daily...that his daily routine was created around his evening drinking...usually always began about 5pm...minimum 4 or 5 very large shots (probably 2-3 oz per drink) each evening, before dinner...usually later in evening about 9pm
interesting by the way that he never or extremely rarely if ever eat with his children. they were feed earlier.
so he drank cognac every evening til dinner, sometimes after dinner.
often he would drink more, never less.

2. at the millenium program? yes, in houston at the residence he drank daily. i never saw him in all the years drink at any program until after he spoke...then always after. michael Dettmers might know otherwise and i would believe him.
i never experienced m give 'satsang' while drunk or drinking.
dettmers talked about his personality change with more then the usual drink and i certainly witnessed that often enough.
the scene was comical/pathetic (in retrospect). alvaro or john miller would bring a crystal glass out to the dinning room, m at the end of the table, perhaps a couple people sitting against the walls of the dinning room...sometimes 5 or 6. the glass would be on a smallish tray with the glass covered (all the way from the kitchen to the dining room). the serving premie would have the other hand over the heart...the glass placed on the table in front of m and the server bowing with eyes closed....backing out of the room. i witnesed this ritual countless times.

2. drinking problem? you be the judge...my experience was that his whole schedule was set up...covertly around his drinking time.

3. drug use? i witnesed m smoking pot beginning 1973 (my witnessing began then). how often...not sure really, lots more then i saw i know for sure. most likely often weekly during most of the time i was around (1984...then i left and got married, returned as part time instructor til 87 and saw little during those years except it was the same when i was around sometimes as an x-rated premie til 1987).
i personally doubt that m ever tried acid or stronger then hash drugs. not his style to be that out of control. anyways, i have no personal knowledge of anything except pot and hashish nor did i ever hear of more between 1973-87.
hashish was added to a yogart drink at holi festivals, at all holi festivals, india, n. america, spain etc. part of the indian tradition as i was told. very strong. somethimes just pot was ground up with the drink...both were referred to as bong i think.
i never saw m give satsang while stoned.
most often my experience with m and pot was (always) at the residence, late in the evening, maybe 20 x-rated staff around the living room...m would start a large joint, maybe two...to his own lips making it of course more special to us!) he would have as much as he wanted and then pass it to marolyn (usually) and from there to the rest of us til it was gone.
he would play music for awhile and go upstairs to bedroom after 30-60 minutes. we would mill araound and begin to clean up the house and kitchen til quite late on most of those occasions.
for me, this was maybe 2-3 times a month. i found it generally part of what was so boring. Dettmers expressed somewhere on epo that he enjoyed the music...more then me i guess...i prefer to engage with those around me when smoking, laugh and connect with others...none of that ever happened...silence, some whispering perhaps, fairly loud music, some folks sleeping from fatigue until m said goodnite.
( i really liked the community aspect of the k/service experience and that was not the vib around the residence...all single pointed focus of course...very boring)

4. did PAMs ever talk about how strange and hypocritical...?
never with me or to my knowledge. this was the last group of people that i nor anyone would speak with honestly, share any concerns with etc. i had my own network of others who i would speak with about my doubts and concerns...many still my friends and most who left around the same time ...
this is interesting perhaps as it points to the fear or at minimum the lack of ease that existed around m. mostly everyone was 'happy to be there' and would do nothing if possible to risk losing tha place at his feet. everyone knew there was a mile long line of others wanting to be there in our place. so we were all individuals in our own closed systems walking round never really connecting with each other. reminds me of lots of painful feeling of how isolated i felt during...especially...1980-84...bored to.
god, what took me so long to make the break?

5. was it hard to keep the x-rated secrets? yes and no. there were those who i did speak with about it, close friends (which i remember m trying to break me from). i guess having a few that i could speak to was enough to 'take the edge off' the potential conflicts.
plus, clearly m used the x-rated status as a means of coopting us into increased loyalty....playing on that part of us (me) that liked to be special...probably power related also....at least i noticed how others felt more powerful once inside the circle, so it must have been something in me too.

6. was m having affairs since 1977 as mark a. suggested? i really don't know, but it seems like if he were i might have known about it and did not. monica lewis came on the scene in what? 1982? and seemed to be the first to me...or whatever that was about. honestly not even sure personally about that affair and what it was really about.

7/ did i procure women for m? i arranged to have a premie woman at decca to be standing in the 'right place at the right time' at m's request...to 'check he out'. he had me arrange on follow up to that 'darshan' with a meeting at the residence with her, daytime and in the dining room, meeting lasted 15 minutes, not sexual then...and i 'saw' m with her twice after that ..and not sure what or how far that went.

the only other situation was speaking with one resident premie who had sex with m and was devastated afterwards when m would not communicate with her, avoided her etc. the sexual experience was not very satisfying for her...and worse was the avoidence afterwards.

the other names that mark mentioned i do not know about nor have i heard about...grace m i personally doubt, but...
one point here to understand clearly...there were lots of women who would have loved to have sex with m. who shared their fantasies with him via letters, conversations, actions, innuendo etc. he had no shortage of willing companions...but when the power is so imbalanced, even willing takes on significance. of course, all the hindu stories of masters and mistresses go way back and told and retold.

8. have any of those women spoken up? i guess not really.
re: claudia...no, i never spoke with claudia after her break up with raja ji...never heard of the book...i know she was very angry and blamed both m and raja ji for fooling around etc. surely there were threats (felt or implied)during the settlement. i know of no other 'settlements'

9. hit and run i was not aware of that story but believe dettmers about it. sounds like the m that i knew, sounds like the willingness of prouty and others around m that i remember.

10. jagdeo...strangely i never heard of this trip. since reading this forum i have been told of another situation on the east coast in the 70's. i do not feel at liberty to discuss this but will continue to encourage those involved to speak out. i very reliable story to add to the mix.
as i have mentioned elsewhere, m always had the back door channels that he would use...usually the residence staff or those few like randy prouty who were in and out and conduits of info and tasks..leaving those of us on the more 'official side' in the dark. his style of secrecy and divide and conquer.

11/ challenging m? calling him on his immorality? no, i never did except once to wonder (cautiously) about his responsibility towards the instructors he was letting go of so callously. there was a presumption that he was above any standards of course...doubts of that = mind= disloyalty=grounds to be put outside the circle etc.
his general response to the gentle questioning of his dismissal of the instructors , most of whom thought it was for life literally as was the agreement...was (paraphase) 'i made them instructors i can unmake them, that is what their surrender is all about'.

12. did i witness any mircles? no, never. i did see lots of wonderful, talented people working hard together...often inspite of m's disorganization and secrcy and blaming, do great things together. lots of that seemed miraculous to me then and now.
re; the miller story of driving off a cliff, i do vaguly remember that story and never believed it...miller was quite the story teller.

13. my personal relationship with m? cannot really say that i had a personal relationship with him...certainly not the kind that was warm, friendly, conversational, sharing mutual stories, questions, doubts. in retrospect, the feelings that he care about me were based upon the cosmology at the time...all that he did for me...like keep me hanging around endless in a waiting mode because i was the active type...he did for my own good out of his love for me. that he had some special, personal plan for my life to help me become a 'better person' (read better devotee). this is the mantra i chanted most of the time that both provided a context to explain all the uncomfotable feeling i was having as well as provide a foundational understanding of some personal relationship.
did i ever feel i could speak openly with him? no never.
did i ever see anyon else speak openly or honestly with him, no never. i believe michael dettmers (small question about what happened after that one time with michael and m left the room without saying anything...how long before michael left his service and bow did m change towards michael after that??)

14. what about the future...what is the best thing that could happen now? something between the ex s and m?
at this point i have zero interest in trying to arrange anything with m and us or others. i have no reason to believe that he will or could change and become a serious world leader using his charisma or something to affect change. his credibility is completely shot, and unsalvageable in my small opinion. i have too many things in my life that i enjoy and am doing to on a smaller local scale to be at all interested. my co housing community here, raising my daughter, on the board of the local waldorf school, learning about myself via my close relationships etc.
ironically and in some very strange way apparently there are those still working thru that part of themselves that is a devotee and it often takes a guru to have that. so long as there are devotees, there will be those willing to be gurus.
our most important work is to grow that devotee up within ourselves into more wholeness and personal power and self love.
i can't imagine what m will do. certainly he could leave it all and retire as he has often threatened to do...unless he is stillhooked on the 'love' and adoration of others...probably.
honestly, i care very little what will happen, except to be willing to reach out and spend some time with those who might benefit from someone on the outside who has been there.

bye for now...what do you think la ex.?

 

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 13:20:42 (GMT)
From: AJW
Email: None
To: Mike Donner.
Subject: Thanks Mike.
Message:

Hey,

Thanks for that Mike.

All the bits and pieces of the puzzle are fitting together, and it's not a pretty picture. Nobody is coming out of the cult and saying, 'No, Dettmers was lying. Captain Rawat doesn't drink at all.' All the accounts of what's really going on, support all the other accounts.

There are three standpoints. You can believe it and quit. You can remain in ignorance. You can believe it but try to cover it up and justify it to yourself in some crazy way.

Most premies are in the mushroom class in the middle, 'kept in the dark and fed on shit.'

Your information about another Jagdeo offence on the East Coast is disturbing, but not unexpected. I'd like to discuss this more with you offline if that's OK.

It's really good that you're posting Mike. I hope you stick around, and maybe start writing your 'Journey.' (Please let me edit it and insert some capital letters before you post it).

Mr Ginn. (English and Drama)

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:53:38 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Susan
Subject: Thanks for all that, Donner
Message:

Really glad you're posting, donner. Your perspective, your personality is different than Mike's and for those of us who never got to actually touch the elephant, it's so good to hear from those who did.

Actually, now that you're here, I don't think we need Dettmers anymore. We can't afford to keep every ex-PAM on the payroll just for the hell of it. I'm sure he'll understand. Marianne, could you draw up the papers please?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:33:53 (GMT)
From: janet
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: dettmers-you're staying! jim's drunk!
Message:

pay no attention to that silly lawyer behind the curtain. we want you here. and we outnumber him. so there.

¦-[Þ

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 19:11:56 (GMT)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: janet
Subject: janet I love having you here! LOLs :--P n/t
Message:

yeah, baby

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 19:41:43 (GMT)
From: Pat Conlon
Email: None
To: Francesca
Subject: Pauline's selling a kidney so janet can come to
Message:

Latvian Night!

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:24:56 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: janet
Subject: That is one fucking beautiful emoticom!
Message:

Until yesterday, I've never really been the emoticom type. In fact, I never had much time for them kinda people. But that was so beautiful! Thank you, Janet.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:07:10 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: Jim
Subject: Humm...!
Message:

Sounds similar to my last meeting with M.

Jim, are you M's equivalent at EPO?

Michael

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 10:24:30 (GMT)
From: Marianne
Email: None
To: Jim and Michael
Subject: No paper drawing for me
Message:

Hey Jim, you can draw up papers too! You're trying to make me do something with eDrek and now Dettmers. I'm much too busy organizing the next few Latvian Nights -- SF, Miami, Montreal, London again in the fall, etc. Do you own dirty work.

Did someone give you a happy pill?

Marianne

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:39:25 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Marianne
Subject: Do I own dirty work? Well I guess I have a little
Message:

Actually, Marianne, I'm really quite happy. I'm happy with this whole ex thing. So many neat people saying so many cool and interesting things about something bizarre I once lived through. Although I'd resigned myself to think no one would ever really appreciate that strange part of my lifem that feeling's long, long gone. Now, not only are there so many I can *talk* with or *listen* to but many of them had such rich and varied vantage points former grunts like me can learn so much from.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 20:20:01 (GMT)
From: Marianne
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Hear, hear
Message:

Couldn't have said it better meself, Jimmy.

Your unfashionable pal, Marianne

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:37:22 (GMT)
From: janet
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: you noticed, huh? he thinks he is. hahahaha.
Message:

some people learn frighteningly well from their masters. you can see it when they turn around and practice it on their inferiors. or so they think they are, anyway.

still, it's usefull to have such a vociferous guard dog. his barking scares away the burglars.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:24:23 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: Dettmers, Donner, Rollins
Subject: Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question
Message:

Since you three seem to be congregating at this thread, I have a question for any / all of you.

I am certain that many disenfranchised former PWKs and current PWKs read this forum. I assume you continue contact with some of those who have been privy to the inner workings as you have. Without sharing confidences of course, what is their mind set and would some of them be willing to share here? If not, what are their objections?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:27:01 (GMT)
From: donner
Email: None
To: Richard
Subject: Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question
Message:

i am not in touch with anyone currently involved organizationally in any way. only some friends in smallish towns still practicing some at least.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:27:22 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: Richard
Subject: Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question
Message:

Richard,

I have received several e-mails from premies who are in the process of exiting the cult because of my posts, but who do not yet post on the Forum. All have told me that they derive tremendeous benefit from the different perspectives that are represented on the Forum, which is so helpful because exiting for them is such a gut wrenching experience. They don't post because they don't yet feel comfortable to do so, and/or because they still have many premies friends they either don't wnat to lose or confront.

I have only received two e-mails from premies whom I once knew who are still involved. They don't deny the reports I and other's have made about M, but they either rationalize it a-la Turner, or they are cinvinced that M will one day answer all of these questions to their satisfaction. I encourage them to keep tuning into the Forum and to e-mail me whenever they wish to.

Michael

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:55:43 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Richard
Subject: Dettmers, Donner, Rollins question
Message:

I have talked about this forum to a few friends since Donner made me aware of MVD's posts. I'm not sure if that will influence any of them to monitor or post on this site.

What does PWK mean? Premie with knowledge? As opposed to a Premie who has renounced knowledge?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:11:45 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: guy rollins and dettmers
Subject: Dettmers, Guy - thanks
Message:

Michael your testimonial to the Forum should be part of the TV campaign we are planning. I kid you but it is great to know others are deriving help from reading here.

And apparently Donner gets a new toaster oven for referring Guy to the Forum.

Thank you gentlemen.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:04:12 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: guy rollins
Subject: Guy, sorry about the lingo
Message:

PWK is how M/ EV referred to Person With Knowledge. Don't know if he / they still do but it's used here as short hand. PWKs would be People With Knowledge. Some people here use a derogatory term Pwick (as in prick) or Pewk (as in puke).

Face it man, you've joined a new cult! You and Donner both seem to react with puzzlement to the shorthand used here so maybe the oldtimers will be more universal in usage. Or someone can put together a glossary for newcomers.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:02:26 (GMT)
From: Katie H.
Email: None
To: guy rollins
Subject: PWK=Person with Knowledge
Message:

This is actually an EV term (to replace 'premie', I guess). Unlike 'PAM', which is an ex-premie.org-orginating term :).

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:05:45 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: Katie H.
Subject: PAM = Premie Around Maharaji /nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:08:32 (GMT)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Richard
Subject: PAM = Person Around Maharaji
Message:

It's really 'person around Maharaji' - it comes from the way EV/DLM would always say 'people around Maharaji' when expressing an opinion on one thing or another - rather than saying 'Maharaji' thinks this, that, or whatever. Sort of the 'bearer of bad news' idea.

Broke another posts read record today - perhaps the FA's will give detail.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:54:26 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Katie
Subject: PAM = Person Around Maharaji
Message:

Thanks for the education.

I figure 'nt' must be no text...I'm fast!

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:26:35 (GMT)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: guy rollins
Subject: you got it!
Message:

Pretty smart! Some of this is just standard internet lingo - and if you haven't posted on another board, it can be confusing:

nt = no text (took me forever to figure that one out)
LOL = laughing out loud
ROFL (and variations) = rolling on the floor laughing
BTW = by the way
IMHO or IMO or JMO = in my honest opinion, or in my opinion, or just my opinion
:) or or (g) = smile or grin

I know there are more...

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:44:13 (GMT)
From: janet
Email: None
To: Katie--to guy
Subject: OT=subject off topic(not gmj dish)...nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:41:23 (GMT)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: guy
Subject: Just realized you probably know all this! nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:21:00 (GMT)
From: Katie H.
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Michael Dettmers, a personal post to you
Message:

Hey Michael -
I wrote this to someone in e-mail last night, so thought I'd say it to you in person. I REALLY appreciate your posting on this forum - I know that you got kind of a rough reception at first, and I appreciate your perseverance and your willingness to examine your ideas and beliefs about Maharaji.

As you probably know, I've been hanging around this forum and site for a long time, and your posts about your experiences have been a major 'drip' (see Anth's Journey) for so many people. I think you have caused many people to think about their involvement with Maharaji, and I think that has helped these people tremendously.

I'm also happy for your sake that you are not the only certified PAM here anymore - must be kind of a relief, eh?

Take care - and thanks.
Katie H.

P.S. Brian and I hope to meet you in person some time soon. We did sneak up to Charlottesville a few months ago to have an top secret X-rated Aussie/US ex-premie meeting at the 'Amaroo Inn' :).

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:30:51 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: Katie H.
Subject: Thanks
Message:

Katie,

I am delighted that Michael Donner is sharing his information and perspective on the Forum and I encourage other ex-PAMs to do the same.

Since we're practically neighbors, let's get together on your next visit to C'Ville.

Michael

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:37:07 (GMT)
From: Katie H.
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: You're welcome
Message:

We'll be in touch.

Actually, we were in C'ville the weekend of the Va. Tech/Virginia game last year, and had to be FAR more secretive about being Hokies than about being ex-premies :). But it's a great town.

Take care,
Katie

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:48:31 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: Katie H.
Subject: Oh no!
Message:

Katie,

I am an assistant coach with UVA's mens ice hockey team. We lost this year to the Hokies in the playoffs. Better not visit during hockey season next year. I'll definately 'out' you.

Michael

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:57:11 (GMT)
From: Katie H.
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Oh no! is right
Message:

LOL - we'll be sure to wear all our Hokie paraphenalia up there to embarass you. Also will be depending on you to protect us - those hockey players can be mean WHEN they have their pads, etc. on.

Katie the former Caps fan :) (actually we don't get good coverage of hockey down here, despite the Roanoke team, so have switched to being a big college/NFL football fan.)

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:14:40 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Who ME?? As Bal Bhagwan Ji use to say
Message:

I'm nothing. I'm just a bag of bones.

But, the pathetic thing is ... naw, it's not worth getting into. Okay, you can stay. For now, at least.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:26:17 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Hey Jim, let's just let Bahgwans be Bahgwans /nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 04:30:19 (GMT)
From: Jim :)
Email: None
To: Richard
Subject: Cute but, Richard, let's face it, that's a pun
Message:

I'm inclined to avoid puns being that they were one of the tools Maharaji used to enslave us.

Well, that's one reason.

Frankly, puns scare me. They're like clowns, kinda. Know what I mean? You wouldn't want a clown sitting right next to you when you're trying to eat or anything, would you? Well, same thing. Only instead of a clown, it's a pun.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 07:31:53 (GMT)
From: Richard (|:-)[~~]X
Email: None
To: Jim :)
Subject: Very punny Jim
Message:

You're clowning around, right? Well I happen to love wordplay of any kind, pun or otherwise. Now clowns, that's another story. They freak my out. Always have. Don't know why but they seem dishonest in a malevolent sort of way. And ever since I saw that photo of John Wayne Gacey in clown drag it sort of capped any hope I ever had of overcoming my Bozophobia. And mimes - mimes should be rounded up and forced to perform for the blind while trapped in a real glass box.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 09:51:07 (GMT)
From: janet
Email: None
To: Richard (|:-)[~~]X
Subject: love puns, hate clowns. watch out. now i know!
Message:

Jim, i now have yet one more way to annoy you and drive you to drink and civil suits.
richard, great to find a kindred spirit. the bhagwan number was choice. more??

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:48:08 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: janet
Subject: FA - Could you please sweep this post for threats?
Message:

I'm not sure but I think Janet's threatening me. Trouble is, I'm a little slow this morning after we got a little Latvian last night. Juts a litle. But I think there's a threat in there. Something to do with clowns or something. Thanks.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 15:11:38 (GMT)
From: Susan
Email: None
To: janet
Subject: Bozophobiacs Unite
Message:

that was great. I share Jim's pun shyness as well, same reason, heard to many in the cult.

Didn't 'if it doesn't fit, you must acquit' sound like Charnanand would have said it? Stupid rhymes were big too.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:51:44 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Susan
Subject: I would LOL if I wasn't half asleep
Message:

Susan,

First, I was kidding. Shit, now I have to even tell YOU that? YOU, Susan? Oh my God!

But second, that was a very, very, very ....Susan that was just so fucking funny! 'If it fits, you must acquit'! By the way, I'm thinking of using that as a joke some day in a jury adress. Haven't had the guts to do it yet but, well, some day.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 07:26:02 (GMT)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: Jim :)
Subject: I love puns, and clowns. Homey don't play dat n/t
Message:

Homey the clown from 'In Living Color' boy he was mean.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:10:25 (GMT)
From: Monmot
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: LOL!!! Touche......nt
Message:

mm

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:38:03 (GMT)
From: Katie H.
Email: mishkat@tigerriver.com
To: Michael Donner
Subject: Thanks, Michael Donner
Message:

Hi Michael -
(I know what you mean about being named Michael and being called Mike, by the way!)

This forum is moving so fast that it took me forever to find it, but I was particularly struck by something you said in one of your posts below. You wrote:
in retrospect, it feels to me that most of what we learned and have carried forword into our current lives (my current life) was
is due, not to m personally, rather his message/ideal we heard and lots of it in spite of him...overcoming him and being willing to hold on to the true love that i discovered while there..for me that is jeff, teddy, joe, dic, michael, gary, don, etc etc.etc. loving and nuturing myself, empowering myself. all in spite of his best efforts to try to get me to leave, ignore, refect, all but him.

I don't really agree with you about M's 'message/ideal', because I don't recall him saying anything about connecting with other people/premies. But I definitely agree with you about the community and the individuals I met when I was a premie being the best part about my involvement. The premies I met when I first started going to satsang were SO accepting and kind - I was attending satsang with a group of friends who were all about 15 to 18 years old and most of us were basically pretty weird and somewhat freaked out at the time. (I particularly remember the kindness of Susie Whitten, Jackie Murphy, and Connie Best, but know there were many others).

I really haven't kept in touch with people I knew from my old premie days, except of course, people who I was friends with when I became a premie - my sister, my best friend, and others. However, Brian and I have met a LOT of ex-premies, and we have felt a strong sense of connection still there. I think it has something to do with being the kind of people who would be attracted to Maharaji in the first place AND with being the kind of people who would leave Maharaji.

You wrote in the message Susan copied above:
i really liked the community aspect of the k/service experience and that was not the vib around the residence...all single pointed focus of course...very boring
and re being a PAM
everyone knew there was a mile long line of others wanting to be there in our place. so we were all individuals in our own closed systems walking round never really connecting with each other. reminds me of lots of painful feeling of how isolated i felt during...especially...1980-84...bored to...
and
...clearly m used the x-rated status as a means of coopting us into increased loyalty....playing on that part of us (me) that liked to be special...probably power related also....at least i noticed how others felt more powerful once inside the circle, so
it must have been something in me too.

My worst memories of being a premie are of myself trying to get more involved with the people who were closer to Maharaji (really just ashram premies, for me - I never knew any PAM's, and NEVER saw Maharaji close up except in darshan.) There was a definite social pecking order, and I wanted to climb higher on it - I wasn't just content to be a sort of fringe premie (I was a VERY insecure teenager and you know how many teenagers always want to be in the 'in crowd' anyway!) And of course, this led to a lot of anxiety about being in the right place at festivals, etc, having the right service, being 'connected' to the ashram premies, etc. I was pretty callous to some of the premies I was closest to because they didn't have the right 'devoted status'.

About isolation - I remember very well the 'space-out' of 1976 when most of the premies (including me) were loosening up, relaxing, moving out of the ashram, having fun with each other, and generally having a good time. I particularly remember one festival in Providence RI in 1976 when we did not do the whole darshan ritual (and how competitive THAT was) - just walked past Maharaji and bowed or waved or whatever. It was wonderful. I also particularly remember the 'rededication' message of late 1976 and early 1977, when we were basically told to stop having fun and to stop relating to each other as people, and focus on being devoted to Maharaji. I still have horrible memories of a Holi festival in Miami where I felt completely alienated from everyone because of this. (I left shortly thereafter - couldn't handle it.)

Of course, since then, Maharaji has tightened up the isolation and estrangement between premies even further by stopping satsang, not allowing people to talk about knowledge, and generally being extremely secretive and paranoid. I personally know of at least a few premies who lurk around this forum because we are actually allowed to talk to each other. It ain't satsang, but IMHO it's the closest thing to the after-satsang chit-chat sessions (which I loved) that exists today. I honestly don't know how people can deal with being involved today unless they have a very strong personal support system of people who they ARE allowe to talk to.

Well, this is getting kind of long, but I wanted to let you know that I appreciated your comments about the kind of people who became premies, and the isolation that Maharaji has attempted to impose on premies then and now. (This 'divide and conquer' and 'blaming the messenger' and scapegoating is extremely common in alcoholic or other dysfunctional families, by the way - it was present in my family when I was growing up, and I only survived because my sister and I refused to let our alcoholic parents come between us.)

Take care -
Katie H.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:24:55 (GMT)
From: Jerry
Email: None
To: Susan
Subject: Thank you, Mike
Message:

This is really important stuff you're sharing with us, Mike. I hope it helps you to share it as much as it does for us to hear about it. Maybe more PAMs will come forward to cleanse their own souls as well in days to come. If this stuff that you and Dettmer's claim happenned really did, than anybody else who was there to witness it really should. It's just pure selfishness not to. Hats off to you and Dettmers. At least two of you cared enough to step forward. I really hope more do in the future. Maybe they just don't understand how important it is that they do. It's real important. The truth always is.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 21:15:16 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Donner
Subject: In response to your Answers:
Message:

Donner wrote:

honestly, i care very little what will happen, except to be willing to reach out and spend some time with those who might benefit from someone on the outside who has been there.
*****

Michael, I second your ending statement (above). Good post, very fair and accurate.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:46:10 (GMT)
From: Katie H.
Email: None
To: guy rollins
Subject: I agree with you, Guy
Message:

Honestly, I find Maharaji to be VERY boring. (I believe that saying which goes 'The opposite of love isn't hate - it's indifference.) And after being around this site and forum for a while, I find Maharaji to be even MORE boring. He IS boring, IMHO.

However, I don't find the people who read and post here (both ex-premies and premies) to be boring, and I am glad that you and both Michael D.'s feel the same way.

Take care,
Katie H.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:10:04 (GMT)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: guy rollins
Subject: Question, Guy
Message:

You referred in an earlier post to being blamed by Maharaji concering the purchase of a plane (apparently along with someone else), when in reality you had opposed the purchase.

Can you explain the details of that?

Also, regarding the Boeing 707. I was at Deca for awhile and in Miami for some time after that while the plane was being worked on.

Whose idea was that project in the first place? Who had the idea of getting a passenger plane and converting it? I know M was into it, but do you know how it got started?

I sat in on a meeting with Virgil, Hession and a bunch of other people, maybe you were there in about September, 1979, when the whole plane purchase was talked about. Virgil was livid at the way the plane purchase was handled, and Hession explained the corporate structure for owning the plane. Do you recall any of that?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:20:55 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Joe
Subject: Question, Guy
Message:

You referred in an earlier post to being blamed by Maharaji concering the purchase of a plane (apparently along with someone else), when in reality you had opposed the purchase.

Can you explain the details of that?
******
First, let me say that my memory for time and detail is not nearly so good as Dettmers and Donner....

Before one of M's around the world trips, he sent me to look at used bizjets in several cities (while he was gone). This was probably because the 707 was proving to be to big, too expensive, too old to operate.

We ended up buying and renovating an older Hawker-Siddley. I pointed out some of it's deficiencies, but M was enthusiastic. I don't believe it had sufficient range.

We installed new interior, new avionics, paint, etc. The first time M wanted to fly there was some mechanical/electrical problem that kept it grounded. He was disappointed and I don't believe he ever used it after that -- or used it very little.
*****
Also, regarding the Boeing 707. I was at Deca for awhile and in Miami for some time after that while the plane was being worked on.

Whose idea was that project in the first place? Who had the idea of getting a passenger plane and converting it? I know M was into it, but do you know how it got started?
******
Dettmers probably has more background on this than I do.

I had moved back to Malibu and was living with some folks in a house in Trancas Canyon. I got a call to come up to the residence and heard from M about the plan to purchase a plane. I was asked to produce a deck plan (floor plan). At this time I had no aviation experience.

Soon thereafter we moved the operation to Miami and began IMMCO (?), which became DECA.
*****
I sat in on a meeting with Virgil, Hession and a bunch of other people, maybe you were there in about September, 1979, when the whole plane purchase was talked about. Virgil was livid at the way the plane purchase was handled, and Hession explained the corporate structure for owning the plane. Do you recall any of that?
*****
No, I don't remember the particular meeting you mention.

I saw the jet (an old Pan Am B707) at the Miami airport before it was purchased. I was never involved in the details of the purchase.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:11:14 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: guy rollins
Subject: The 707
Message:

Joe and Guy,

The idea for securing and converting a large jet into a flying residence for him and his family was Maharaji’s. Who else would come up with such an idea? He had seen world leaders disembark their private L1011’s, and DC10’s on TV and thought, “Why not me?”

Let me give you a little additional background for this decision. In November 1977, Maharaji held an international Hans Jayanti festival in Rome. The person who was tasked with securing a chartered aircraft to transport M and his family encountered some last minute snags, and the deal fell through. Consequently, M et. al. were forced to travel First Class on SAS Airways from LA to Denmark. At the time, M had two very young children, Wadi and Hansi. One or both of them cried throughout most of the flight. Several of the First Class passengers complained about the noise. Maharaji, who was now quite drunk and needed to pee, was very uncomfortable using the public head. I distinctly remember him coming to my seat and saying, “This is the worst experience I have ever had in my life.” He wasn’t exactly blaming me for the situation, but he was making it clear that it was my job to see that he never had to fly commercial airlines again. To complete this journey, we managed to charter a Folker jet for the trip from Denmark to Rome.

While in Rome, I took charge of securing a charter aircraft from Rome to … (I can’t remember if he went home to Malibu, or if he headed for London). In any case, the chartered aircraft lost an engine shortly after takeoff. The plane had to circle Rome while dumping fuel before making an emergency landing back in Rome. That did it. Maharaji made it absolutely clear that I had to secure him a plane that could accommodate him, his family and his staff and that it had to be a plane that was impeccably maintained by his people. No more charters.

During this period, Maharaji owned a twin-engine Cessna aircraft, which he used for personal recreation -vacations to the Bahamas and such. Following the Rome fiasco, he charged his co-pilot with the task of finding a suitable aircraft. The result was the used Boeing 707, one of the first Pan Am 707’s in service, and now comfortably retired on an airfield in Dublin, Ireland. I was in M’s office in Malibu when he received a call from his co-pilot enthusiastically proclaiming that he had found the “diamond in the rough” aircraft that was just perfect for Maharaji. Maharaji poured us each another drink and I was dispatched to Ireland with Raja Ji to consummate the deal.

Michael

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:38:50 (GMT)
From: Moldy Warp
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Hans Jayanti 77 - different travelling styles!
Message:

God, Michael, thanks for that post! That brought back some memories for me. Hans Jayanti Rome 77 was my honeymoon (yes, only on this site could I admit this!). A whole bunch of us travelled from Newcastle-upon-Tyne, England, to Rome on a double-decker bus with metal-backed seats! There were lots of small kids on that bus. Someone's baby caught a virus ( or some sort of serious bug -can't remember what) and nearly died. The bus hit a bridge at a border stopping, narrowly avoiding maiming the adults and kids upstairs in the front seats. Kids cried a lot ( as they would stuck on a bus for 3 days!). But the thing about your post that gets me even more than god-in-a-bod's transport demands, is that he was getting pissed. And there's us, seriously deprived of sleep and comfort ( not to mention sanity), worshipping him as Krishna!

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:37:26 (GMT)
From: observer
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: aircraft accident study
Message:

'In any case, the chartered aircraft lost an engine shortly after takeoff. The plane had to circle Rome while dumping fuel before making an emergency landing back in Rome.'

I heard about a study done by premies on aircraft accidents. That seems to shed light on why this was done. Maybe he was simply afraid of death.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:30:41 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: The 707
Message:

Thanks for the background, Michael.

I heard about a lot of things (at the time) that I wasn't involved in, but now it's all dim memories. Must have worked too hard at DECA!

Was it December '77 when we began the project in Malibu and January, '78 when I/we arrived in Miami?

Thanks, Guy

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:18:13 (GMT)
From: Alan Fenstermacher
Email: alan@woodcon.com
To: Guy + MD'S
Subject: The 707 - General Projects Budgeting Process
Message:

Guy Michael or Mike,

Did any of these major projects ever go through any kind of process to develop a budget before they proceeded or did M tell you what he wanted and then you had to go find the money?

I ask because the last project I worked on for DLM was the Denver Unity School (76) and I remember the school had x number of dollars so the project was going to be built for x and when I received all the material quotes it was like 3x. I was told not to worry and the principal was going to ask DLM for the money. In the end it was a lot of fund-raisers and some scaling back, but all this was discovered after the building had been purchased or leased.

A-

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 04:09:22 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: Alan Fenstermacher
Subject: The 707 - General Projects Budgeting Process
Message:

Alan,

Yes, there was a budgeting process, but it had little to do with whether a project was funded or not. Maharaji set the priorities and we did our best to give him what he wanted. The budgeting process was simply a way of determining how much the project would cost.

Often, Maharaji would look at a budget and complain that it was too expensive. The first items he always questioned were the costs required to support the premies who would be working on the project. When we cut those back to the bare bones, he might decide to cut back on some of the requirements he had specified. Inevitably, thought, he would re-instate his original requirements, and then add a few more. Whatever budget we began with got completely blown and would have to be covered by another round of fundraising.

Michael

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:37:34 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: guy rollins
Subject: I think it was about a year later (nt)
Message:

nt

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:23:35 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: Guy
Subject: One more question, Guy
Message:

I know a lot of DECCA participants turned sour on M because he never acknowledged their tremendous efforts and personal sacrifice. Do you know if M ever thanked anyone for 'the project?' Or any other project for that matter.

R

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:27:57 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Richard
Subject: One more question, Guy
Message:

I believe I received at least one (g) thanks from M....I remember thinking about this at the time. It was very unusual to hear M thank someone for a good job, but he did occasionally.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:27:07 (GMT)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: Richard
Subject: Okay, one more....
Message:

And is it really true that even before the plane was finished, Maharaji already wanted to get rid of it and get a different plane?

Richard, tag, you're it!

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:33:56 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Joe
Subject: Okay, one more....
Message:

I don't remember that.

I know that Dettmers had an aviation consultant who recommended against the B707 -- and he was right. M would have been better off with a Gulfstream from the start.

It was M's desire to carry the whole family, the staff and household that made him select a B707. I remember that he was very excited when it was finally finished and he took off.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:30:23 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: guy rollins
Subject: More on the 707
Message:

Nice work Guy.

Let’s see if I can add to the story. Once we had purchased this “diamond in the rough” 707 for $250,000.00, we realized that it needed a lot of work. Since I knew virtually nothing about the aviation industry, I hired an expert whom Raja Ji had met on the Concord on one of his flights from New York to London. His name was Vernon Crudge, the then current President of the Wings Club and a person who knew everyone in, and everything about, the aviation game. His help was invaluable in getting the 707 certified and ensuring that it was manned by a competent flight crew.

When he first saw the 707, he was horrified at its condition and did suggest that M would have been better off with a Gulfstream but, at that time a Gulfstream would not have had the range, nor would it have been able to transport M and his family in the comfort and style he demanded.

In time, Vernon Crudge became a close personal friend who was very helpful at opening doors for Dettmers Industries after I had left M’s service. He has since passed away.

Michael

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:27:39 (GMT)
From: Joy
Email: joy52@earthlink.net
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: I Have A Quick ? re the 707
Message:

Does anybody know how often this 707 was used by M once it was finished? I had heard that it was just a few times before it was sold or retired.

I find that really incredible. All those millions of man-hours (sorry, person-hours), people's health ruined, milions of dollars, and all for what, just a few rides? There is something really obscene about that.

So does anyone have any info on how much the thing was actually used to transport M after it was completed?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:44:55 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: Joy
Subject: Quick Ans. re the 707
Message:

Joy,

I don't remember the exact number of times it was used but it was definitely more than a few times between mid-1980 through the beginning of 1984 on many around the world trips.

Michael

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 06:39:12 (GMT)
From: bill burke
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: NHD707
Message:

I belive the HD in the name NHD707 stood for Hans Dut(sp) and it was hindi for -emperor of the soul-.
We worked on it from 8-9 in the morning till the last meal arrived from the Broadripple at 2:30 AM. With a break for satsang if we were at the complex. No satsang break at the hanger.
I would imagine this story is remembered by some. When the first tour using the jet was underway, one of the stops was in Montreal and the temperature was below zero and the plane was allowed to be without heat for some amount of time. When the plane was reheated, it was done too quickly and most of the Ebony Wood trim that was used throughout the interiour 'Blued'.
A separation between the finish and the wood.
The story that came to us at the DECA cabinet and paint crews was that m was livid and the guy in charge, I dont remember his name, was put through blistering hell by an enraged m.
Did he really blow in a major way at some people?

I also heard that the plane was next sold to the maharishi mahesh yogi, the t.m. guy. Sound right?

During a deca holi, or afterwards, as m was walking through the pranaming crowd to the garage, a 'wispy sister' (as the paint crew would refer to some of the girls), went up to m and gave him a bouquet of flowers. In the garage, we were told m was angry and said to hession, 'If you do anything for me keep those premies away from me!' The girl was no longer allowed at DECA.
Did he have a strong aversion to contact outside of his usual
structures?

Guy Rollins mentioned m being happy when the 707 took off the first time. Maybe he meant the first time it flew or the first time HE flew it, maybe both, I remember when it flew the first time, I was on the roof of the deca complex with the paint and cabinet crews and others, as the jet went just about directly overhead, a little plane was following, that was m in that one,
and as the 707 went over Miami, we noticed smoke starting to rise from a couple fires in the city not far from us, it was the exact start of the Miami riots. We of course the next day had some divine opinion of that..
maybe Donner or Guy remember if m had any commments about the
premies that hung out around the airport and at the little beach
at the hospital which was right across the water from his REZ
there in Miami.--?

I remember watching m trying to get an ultralight seaplane off the water in the bay and the thing instead went headfirst into the water pretty hard. He bobbed to the surface, and that was the end of that! I used to watch him jet ski daily and water ski and boat. That was after the 707 of course.

You know, just after christmas 79, m had an announcement made to the premies at the St John Church-the premie satsang hall in Miami. The message was 'dont do drugs and dont hang out with those that do.' He did do drugs after that announcement correct?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 16:29:26 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: bill burke
Subject: NHD707
Message:

Hi Bill,

Great post.

The story that came to us at the DECA cabinet and paint crews was that m was livid and the guy in charge, I dont remember his name, was put through blistering hell by an enraged m. Did he really blow in a major way at some people?

Yes, quite often

I also heard that the plane was next sold to the maharishi mahesh yogi, the t.m. guy. Sound right?

Yes

Did he have a strong aversion to contact outside of his usual
structures?

Yes

You know, just after christmas 79, m had an announcement made to the premies at the St John Church-the premie satsang hall in Miami. The message was 'dont do drugs and dont hang out with those that do.' He did do drugs after that announcement correct?

Yes

Michael

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 15:22:37 (GMT)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: bill burke
Subject: WOW bill....
Message:

Hi!

bill, you amaze me. Your memories of those days are so vivid. I remember that when M was in the garage where his fleet was, it was forbidden for anyone to go in there. I don't remember the flower incident, but one time I received a message that Durga ji wanted to talk with him (M). She must have been there in the playroom with the kids, and I had to knock on the door to the ''Garage'' and talk to security, then I walked up to M and Hession, maybe Guy was there too.

The vibe I got was ''what the fuck is she doing here?'' Hession turned beet red (which he did regularly) and M would not look at me, (he always avoided eye contact with me anyway).

I couldn't understand it because even though I was not X-rated, I did have privy to a lot of stuff, including his ETAs to the complex etc., etc.

Regarding the satsang hall. I went there on occasion to get away from the complex and I saw people smoking pot right out in the open outside the building. I, of course, felt quite superior to them at the time. Knowing what I now know about M smoking weed, it cracks me up.

Hope you're well,
Love,
Cynthia

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Date: Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 04:26:02 (GMT)
From: bill
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Cynthia,
Message:

Hi Cynthia,
You came to Conn. during elementary school week break, and
so 2 boys were home and I was home as well. I thought about having you over but the Flu was in one boy and moved to the other so I didnt want to expose you.
I had to take care of them. Maybe the next time you come down
to Conn?

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:30:32 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: And one more....
Message:

And isn't it true the Hans Dout 707 flying hotel was sold to an arms dealer Kashogian (sp) who ripped DECCA off?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:39:56 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Richard
Subject: And one more....
Message:

No.

There was an arms dealer (who lived on Hibiscus Island) who had a B727, I believe. It was serviced at DECA and eventually his unpaid balance did in the company.

I was not involved in the operations of DECA at that time. It had become a 'legitimate' business. We used DECA space and personnel to facilitate other projects for M.

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:51:22 (GMT)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Richard and all
Subject: The 707 at DECA
Message:

Hello all,

The last I read on this forum was that the crappy old 707, which pisses me off just to think about it, did not comply with FAA or some other agency's fuel emission standards.

Therefore, ironically, it was sold to the Maharishi of all people, whose principle place of business is in Switzerland, which doesn't have as strict standards as the US for emissions.

Don't take this as fact. I'm too depressed and tired to look it up in the archives, but I know I read this here.

As far as the DECA project is concerned, I still hold much anger toward Maharaji for ruining my health, i.e., physical, emotional and spiritual, and for throwing me out like so much trash, when I couldn't stay awake 24 hours per day, 7 days a week.

It would be helpful if Guy Rollins would respond, because Guy, secrets like these are not meant to be kept.

I worked for/with you personally, I was your freaking secretary, 'scuse me ''administrative assistant.'' Remember? Type type type....run, run, run....all for the big fat gooomraji.

Do you have some kind of ''agreement'' not to tell?

Sorry for my tone. Between my fucked up ISP and the traffic on this site, (which is good), I haven't been able to get a post to post. I've lost over a dozen in the past week, and have all but given up trying to participate in conversations here. Oh well, progress is bittersweet.

Plus, someone very close to me was just diagnosed with late stage cancer and is probably going to die within the next few months, if not sooner. A neighbor of 14 years.

I'm just pissed that I gave so much of myself to that Rotrat! The sack of shit. The rotten son of a bitch. The cocksucking user!

If this post takes, I'll be very surprised. Anyway, sorry again for the tone, I'm angry and sad. PAMs are a wonderful addition to the forum. Don't forget about all the others, especially at DECA, who gave their hearts and especially health to that monster of a personality cult leader.

Cynthia, in a bad mood today

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Date: Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 03:00:54 (GMT)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Bad mood
Message:

Cynthia, you said:
Plus, someone very close to me was just diagnosed with late stage cancer and is probably going to die within the next few months, if not sooner. A neighbor of 14 years.

I sympathise. The same thing happend to me recently -- my father is in hospital as I write this, where he has been (except for several weeks in a nursing home) since Feb 8. That's only one of many things going on in my circle, but the closest to home.

PS Sometimes you can get the posts back if you use the back and/or forward button. Also, if you are afraid of losing a post, copy your text (use either the edit functions on the taskbar or your right-click menu). Then if the post goes bust, you've got your text to try, try again.

Your input is valuable. Keep posting.

Love, Francesca

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 00:48:48 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Cynthia
Subject: The 707 at DECA
Message:

Gee, I'm starting to feel like Erika (yesterday)....:-)
*******
The last I read on this forum was that the crappy old 707, which pisses me off just to think about it, did not comply with FAA or some other agency's fuel emission standards.

Therefore, ironically, it was sold to the Maharishi of all people, whose principle place of business is in Switzerland, which doesn't have as strict standards as the US for emissions.
*****
This is essentially correct. However, I believe the B707's engines did not pass new FAA noise regulations. I believe it was sold to be used in SE Asia -- but I'm not positive.
*****
As far as the DECA project is concerned, I still hold much anger toward Maharaji for ruining my health, i.e., physical, emotional and spiritual, and for throwing me out like so much trash, when I couldn't stay awake 24 hours per day, 7 days a week.

It would be helpful if Guy Rollins would respond, because Guy, secrets like these are not meant to be kept.
*****
I'm not sure what secrets that I have access to.

I agree with you about the 24/7 schedule. It was the hardest and longest I've ever worked.
*****
Do you have some kind of ''agreement'' not to tell?
*****
I'm not sure what I'm holding back....?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 02:24:35 (GMT)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Guy and Michael
Subject: Guy and Michael, Thank you for your exchange...
Message:

Hello,

Thanks for filling in some details about the DECA project and the 707. Working in the little office in Hialeah, I often heard things, but like you Guy, my memories are very vague on certain points.

I often wonder, though, especially about you, Guy, how you felt during those times. Rather, I should ask you how you feel now about those times. Guy, I remember Maharaji ridiculting you about not being an aviation architect, but something about only knowing about building houses. It's those types of things, not secrets, but feelings now about that kind of ridicule.

Guy, I know you are a quiet person, so I won't press you. But I have to validate for you that I often saw the stress on your face, after having met with M, and probably been given the riot act. I don't ask you to reveal anything personal, if it makes you uncomfortable.

I hope your life is well and your family, too. I am very angry at Maharaji. I recently discovered yet another belief system that HE ingrained in me and it just makes me mad that he was so abusive on every level.

That's all,
Thanks again,
Cynthia

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 06:17:08 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: Cynthia
Subject: Guy and Michael, Thank you for your exchange...
Message:

Cynthia, I'll go into this another time. Remind me.

Good night and thanks ALL for the exchange.

Guy

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:19:43 (GMT)
From: Connie
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Cynthia, just want to say
Message:

that I have appreciated all your posts. They have helped me.

I always look at posts from those who have been posting for a few years.

As well as posts from recent 'non-famous' exes.

Those very human posts, I call Primo Levi ones, some being written in the same spirit. People finding their way back to their roots and loved ones, surveying the landscape, people and climate as they pass by.

Of course the infamous PAMS.

Though much has changed superficially, we were all bound together by the same belief and belonged to the same cult.

Everyone has their perspective, and wherever they were in the heirarchy, does not dismiss what they have to say.

In another thread, something has been said about all the people hurt. I don't know if those in 'privileged positions' can even begin to take that in. I hope so. I think one of the reasons people fought and politicked for those positions was because everyone knew you were treated better, and lets face it, no one wants to be hurt or treated badly. When you look back and remember the hope and idealism that brought you, and how that was crushed learning the rules to stay in the game, it's not easy to come to terms with.

Everyone somewhere in them knew the score.

It just made it more sanitized to put the spiritual words of times past, or the corporate speak ones used today, than to say it for what it was and is - survival of the fittest.

Hard news to hear about your friend.

All the best - I am in a bad mood too, want to smash a few plates against a wall!

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 20:14:15 (GMT)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Connie
Subject: Connie, just want to say
Message:

Hi Connie,

In no way do I think that PAMs had it ''easier'' than non-PAMs. In fact, based on what I've heard here, if a premie was X-rated, there was much pressure and isolation.

Sometimes I get impatient when a ''famous'' ex-premie arrives here; I usually push too hard, and well, yesterday was a tough day for me. They get barraged with questions, and sometimes, one can't get a word in edgewise. I won't mention names:)))))

I remember times when Guy Rollins and Jim Hession would come walking out of Maharaji's office at DECA (both locations) and they would be absolutely stressed out, frazzled, and still had to go on. And god knows what Maharaji had just ordered them to do that day, or what ridiculing they took. I heard some of the ridiculting (I can't seem to stop making that typo!!::))) that went on from M to PAMs. In the presence of the rank and file premies, I'm sure M meant to be demeaning and humiliating (not humbling). Fact is, M's a creep.

I haven't been posting here for years, but I've been here now for several months after a difficult couple of starts. No big deal. I'm a pretty ''what you see is what you get'' type of person; trouble with only seeing words is that we don't get to see the expressions, tone of voice, etc. No emoticons!

Basically, Maharaji is a royal shithead and was a brat then and now, and a bastard to many premies, not only honchos. It did filter down. For the record, I don't believe it was their fault (the PAMs), I place the blame right at M's dirty little rotten feet!

Thanks for your concern about my friend,
Love,
Cynthia

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 21:19:02 (GMT)
From: Connie
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Agree a hundred percent that
Message:

'Basically, Maharaji is a royal shithead and was a brat then and now, and a bastard to many premies, not only honchos. It did filter down. For the record, I don't believe it was their fault (the PAMs), I place the blame right at M's dirty little rotten feet'

You sound like you've been posting for years (this is a compliment).

I'm finding it not easy to write here, I know what I am trying to express, the emotion that is with some of the posts I write, and somehow they seem to get misinterpreted. I've been told by Pat that I am circumspect and dry, that really offended me, as some postings were akin to labour for me!

Best wishes.

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Date: Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 03:06:19 (GMT)
From: Francesca
Email: None
To: Connie
Subject: Your input is valuable
Message:

I have benefitted greatly from it. Mwah! A kiss to you!

Francesca

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 23:31:45 (GMT)
From: Thelma
Email: None
To: Connie
Subject: Connie, ignore Pat. He's a prim old church lady NT
Message:

j

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 22:51:59 (GMT)
From: Katie H.
Email: None
To: Connie
Subject: Connie, your posts are great!
Message:

Don't know why Pat has been trying to get the women on here all fired up - he may get more than he bargained for :)!

I tend to express strong emotions in a rational way while posting - most of the time, anyway :). I actually think it makes it easier to communicate - especially when I'm disagreeing with someone.

Take care,
Katie H.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 23:33:31 (GMT)
From: Pat Conlon
Email: None
To: Katie H.
Subject: Thelma's getting all the womyn fired up because
Message:

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned!

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 22:07:53 (GMT)
From: Connie
Email: None
To: Connie
Subject: well I did, I'm still posting, thanks heaps nt
Message:

aaaaa

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 21:48:02 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: Connie
Subject: Connie - ignore Pat - I love your posts nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:27:58 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Cynthia you said 'Maharaji ridiculting you'
Message:

ridiculting = another word for the EPO glossary. Good slip there.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 15:28:13 (GMT)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Richard
Subject: Richard--Good Catch...
Message:

I knew I had a typo but I didn't look at it nor notice the ''slip.''

Today's a better day...

Love,
Cynthia

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 18:33:21 (GMT)
From: Pat Conlon
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Have you noticed how many hilariously
Message:

and serendipitously accurate typos turn up? We must be synchronized with a playful universe.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 19:57:06 (GMT)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Pat Conlon
Subject: Pat: Ridiculting was a good one....
Message:

if I do say so myself.

How are you? Pretty busy board these days, eh?

Love,
Cynthia

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 20:54:31 (GMT)
From: Pat Conlon
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Cynthia and ''exited utterances''
Message:

I fine thanks and I hope you are too. Hope you're having as much fun on FV as I am.

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Date: Mon, Mar 19, 2001 at 01:27:28 (GMT)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Pat Conlon
Subject: Hi Pat
Message:

This Forum has been ripping along. I haven't been having fun because I couldn't post, that is, I couldn't submit most of my messages, so I got frustrated and pissed.

But things seem to be slower today or at least faster for me. I had a few brews tonight, don't mind me...made a great corned beef dinner tonight, had company and fun.

I'm glad to hear you're well,
Love,
Cynthia

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 01:04:40 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: guy rollins
Subject: Thanks for answers Guy /nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 21:08:38 (GMT)
From: Richard
Email: None
To: donner
Subject: Donner - thank you for some answers
Message:

Reading your responses to la-ex's questions took me back through those times and put a lot of myths to rest. Thank you for sharing your recollections and perhaps unloading some old pain.

Richard

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 21:03:57 (GMT)
From: Dermot
Email: None
To: Michael
Subject: Thanks michael for the time and effort
Message:

A long post to write .....but very illuminating. Thanks a lot.

Dermot

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:41:14 (GMT)
From: donner
Email: None
To: guy rollins
Subject: guy rollins, there are some
Message:

quetions for you in this thread. got a moment?

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 23:49:13 (GMT)
From: guy rollins
Email: guy@architx.com
To: donner
Subject: guy rollins, there are some
Message:

I've been working. I know you think I'm always on the Internet, but not true ;-)

I'll start answering...

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Date: Sat, Mar 17, 2001 at 22:52:29 (GMT)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: donner
Subject: Hey Donner,
Message:

I've been enjoying hearing your perspective. Very helpful.

I have another question for you.

When I was community coordinator in Miami in 1979 and 1980, Dennis Marciniak told me that the FBI was observing the Miami satsang hall because so much drug dealing was going on there. Apparently, there were undercover agents IN satsang. I was told to cooperate with them, which I did.

Also, he told me that the two festivals in Kissimmee were also targets of investigation because of the amount of drugs coming into the festivals on the charters from South America, that were apparently being sold right on the ground of the festival.

Did you ever hear anything about either of those things?

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 07:21:41 (GMT)
From: bill burke
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Miami vices-the drug/fed's/premies connection
Message:

There WERE some big drug dealers that were friends with premies and also some were premies.
Under the -friends of premies- catagory, there were 5 vietnam vets that used to bring drugs into the miami area using helicopters, ships and cigarette boats. The one that had a car dealership in Palm Beach as a cover, disappeared (died)during a tripto colombia. Another had some property in soulth carolina where he had a pond where he kept a lot of his money.--in the water.
He paid a hefty bail with wet cash once.
Later,I tried to remember where abouts he said it was. And what his name was....but to no avail!

Those I knew who were dealers included the now deceased C. B., the most handsome premie in premiedom by far. (He wanted
to have sex with me but I am not that way, luckily! He died of AIDS not long after.) HE traveled to Columbia as a co-pilot with a premie and they landed on the return flight on the island that
was half commandeered by Carlos Ledher. He was one of the 3 big names of the Medillian drug cartel. The others being a guy named _________ the Mexican and the other being --oh what is his name, he was the biggest name and you all have heard it. He was finally killed.

THAT no doubt is why FED's would have sniffed around if there were FED's sniffing around. I only met these people because I lived in Coconut Grove in a Mansion renting a room from a premie I knew while I commuted to DECA every day during november 1979.
I found a cottage across the street from DECA and rented that.
So ended my 'freindship' with those guys.

Carlos Lehder was infatuated with C.B. because they both have some German heritage and also that shared mano e mano thing. Carlos, now permanently in a FED. max security prison, is studying the German language.

As a side note, I was not a druggie! Ask Cynthia.

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Date: Sun, Mar 18, 2001 at 03:47:16 (GMT)
From: donner
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Hey Donner,
Message:

yes, i heard about the miami satsang hall being a target of suspicion but never heard what came of it if anything...and nothing about kissimiee and drugs.

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